My whole trip was about change, changes, changing... so maybe it won't surprise you to read that: " I'm back in Holland!"
What happend to make this decision?
Since last October I have problems with my left foot...again...These problems are due to an accident I had in Laos last March. Back then I recovered quite fast, now it was a slow process...but everyday it got a little bit better. I didn't go to see a doctor in October. I didn't have crutches or other kind of walking support, except for a hand or arm from a nice person who helped me sometimes. I just tried to walk as less as possible to give my foot rest as much as possible. Like I said, slowely it got better. For me the most important thing was that my foot would be good or at least healthy enough, to do the yoga therapy teacher training in Mysore, that started on the 5th of December. I thought it was good enough, at least it felt like that....
The first week everything went fine...till last Sunday...all of a sudden the pain came back, just like that, without warning and I couldn't stand on my foot anymore.
This time I did wanted to know what was really going on, so...MRI, CT-scan, X-ray...I did it all. With the main result to be told, that, there's a foreign body right there where I had a cut in my foot and which is probably the cause for, next to general pain, the numb feelings I have in 2 toes since I had the accident. And another foreign body is in my heel, which is most likely a bone splitter, and due to, too much stress for my foot of the little bit of walking I did do.
"Ahhh doctor what does this mean?" was my question..."honestly", he said..."if you don't want to get osteo-arthritis as a young woman you are now...take rest...take rest for about 3 months"...that was it...nothing more, nothing less.
Sure I could have, like on of my friends suggested, stayed the rest of the time in Goa and do nothing else then "beaching"...Sure I could have undertaken a surgery in India so they could take the foreign body out. Sure I could have just stayed where I was and hang around, and sure you will have a different suggestion as well.
But do you know what...
I am or was just tired of hanging around, I just had been hanging around for 2 months in Rishikesh. I am or was just tired of traveling around, I just had been traveling around in Asia for almost one year. But the idea of going home for Christmas was just to good to be true :-)
So here I am...
bye bye Asia, India, Mysore...hello Europe, Holland, Amsterdam...
This trip was probably the most intense conscious life experience I've had in my life so far. And I'm so grateful that I've been able to do this.
I just say thank you to everyone who shared this experience with me in any kind of way. Maybe it was by sometimes thinking about me, maybe it was by sometimes reading my blog, maybe it was by sometimes writing me, maybe it was by sometimes skyping with me, maybe it was by letting me know you during my travels, maybe it was by visiting me....
And all these experiences, all these connections made my trip to what it has been...a total spiritual journey...a journey so completely different then I thought it would be...
Sometimes it was hard...sometimes it was easy...but I learned the most of the hard times I had.
One person was always there for me. In the beginning physical later mental, energetic, like a soulmate...my sister...she supported me, she listened to me, she cried with me, she laughed with me...she knows how important she is to me...but: "Thank you for being my sister!"
and that's where I am right now....
with metta, carry
What happend to make this decision?
Since last October I have problems with my left foot...again...These problems are due to an accident I had in Laos last March. Back then I recovered quite fast, now it was a slow process...but everyday it got a little bit better. I didn't go to see a doctor in October. I didn't have crutches or other kind of walking support, except for a hand or arm from a nice person who helped me sometimes. I just tried to walk as less as possible to give my foot rest as much as possible. Like I said, slowely it got better. For me the most important thing was that my foot would be good or at least healthy enough, to do the yoga therapy teacher training in Mysore, that started on the 5th of December. I thought it was good enough, at least it felt like that....
The first week everything went fine...till last Sunday...all of a sudden the pain came back, just like that, without warning and I couldn't stand on my foot anymore.
This time I did wanted to know what was really going on, so...MRI, CT-scan, X-ray...I did it all. With the main result to be told, that, there's a foreign body right there where I had a cut in my foot and which is probably the cause for, next to general pain, the numb feelings I have in 2 toes since I had the accident. And another foreign body is in my heel, which is most likely a bone splitter, and due to, too much stress for my foot of the little bit of walking I did do.
"Ahhh doctor what does this mean?" was my question..."honestly", he said..."if you don't want to get osteo-arthritis as a young woman you are now...take rest...take rest for about 3 months"...that was it...nothing more, nothing less.
Sure I could have, like on of my friends suggested, stayed the rest of the time in Goa and do nothing else then "beaching"...Sure I could have undertaken a surgery in India so they could take the foreign body out. Sure I could have just stayed where I was and hang around, and sure you will have a different suggestion as well.
But do you know what...
I am or was just tired of hanging around, I just had been hanging around for 2 months in Rishikesh. I am or was just tired of traveling around, I just had been traveling around in Asia for almost one year. But the idea of going home for Christmas was just to good to be true :-)
So here I am...
bye bye Asia, India, Mysore...hello Europe, Holland, Amsterdam...
This trip was probably the most intense conscious life experience I've had in my life so far. And I'm so grateful that I've been able to do this.
I just say thank you to everyone who shared this experience with me in any kind of way. Maybe it was by sometimes thinking about me, maybe it was by sometimes reading my blog, maybe it was by sometimes writing me, maybe it was by sometimes skyping with me, maybe it was by letting me know you during my travels, maybe it was by visiting me....
And all these experiences, all these connections made my trip to what it has been...a total spiritual journey...a journey so completely different then I thought it would be...
Sometimes it was hard...sometimes it was easy...but I learned the most of the hard times I had.
One person was always there for me. In the beginning physical later mental, energetic, like a soulmate...my sister...she supported me, she listened to me, she cried with me, she laughed with me...she knows how important she is to me...but: "Thank you for being my sister!"
and that's where I am right now....
with metta, carry